Fanafuthi is denying to grow.

am not much of a blogger but I think I can manage with all the typung to do. Since I wrote some piece of stuff about myself about a month ago and I haven't had much going on in my life. The only busy thing in  my life now is my current relationship with Fanafuthi Makalela. We have our more downs and ups. Sometimes I feel like I can just stay away from him ad be alone(as in like being single). I really hate hurting his feelings for nothing. The honest truth is that I love him so much but the things he is doing, are just very childish and I cannot tolerate them. 

Last night we had an arguiment and he ended up upset at me and never talked to me again. I told hime that I want our relationship to be taken  to the next level, and he said to me "what do you mean by that", I responded by saying, "I want us to behave like adults", lol, after a few minutes he hang up the on me. I didn't wanna hurt him by so means of telling it like it is and the boring thing abou thim is that He doesn't want to be grow,he wants to stay a kid as he is, he doesn't accept change. He said to me theat I ave change and I am no longer the girl he once fall in love with. I just feel bad that I am the only one who wants to upgrade our relationship. I think he thinks that I am such a control freak and I wanna tell him how to live his life. I so love him and I also want our relationship not to be the same because we are growing old to be adults and I expect of him to be considerate wit me and help me built this ship to the next momentum.

That's it for today, but I still have more to say just that time is really not on my side and ....yah....that's it.smiley