Fifty shades of Kadot

Everyday i grow old hating my lifee.... i hate who i am... i hate that i cant accomplish anything in my life... even a small start up relationship... the internship i am at  feeels like i deseve beta... i dont belong here.... dad sees me as a burden... well hell yeah hes right... um a burden n i want out.... i want to be free.. last nyt he dint give me transit for this week.... juzi he was yelling at me that hes spendimg too much on my school fees..... hes seeing educating me as a mistake.... as a burden... i wish things were easy for me... i wish things were normal for me... but they aint.... they are hard and tough as hell. why cant i have a stable job... stable relationship... stable friendship.... happy family.... is thiz too much to ask...?