Bestfriend. Lover.

Bestfriend. Lover.

He is not perfect and he will never be perfect. But he make me laugh everyday, he make me think twice and he make mistakes just like any human being. I promise to hold onto him and give him the most I can. He might not be as sweet as other guys out there. He don't show up infront of my house with flowers or any surprises. He don't quote poetry for me and he might not think of me all the time. Also, we don't get to spend times together as much as we want to. Even so, I know he loves me. I know because he trust me and he gave me a part of him that he knows I can break which is his heart. Out of all girls, he picked me. He gave his heart to me. For that, I am forever thankful and I will do whatever it takes to keep him. Whether he realise it or not, he is the only guy I want. I look up to him. I never want to hurt him but I did. I hurt him a lot with my words and my actions. He is such an amazing guy. I have never met anyone like him before. No matter how hard I push him away, he will always come back to me. 

 

I am not lucky but I am blessed having him. I'm proud to call him mine and I want the whole world to know that this amazing guy is mine. I appreciate everything he did for me. He doesn't meet any of my standards but still, I love him. I think that is what love is all about, right? When you decide to be with someone who doesn't meet any of your standards and expectations, yet you still say "I love him. He is the one for me and I will stick with him through all the ups and downs". I expected more than he can give and I admit that it was all my fault but I finally learned to appreciate him.I won't analyze.

 

I will smile when he make me happy, I will yelled and nagged when he pissed me off. Most of all, I will always miss him when he is not around. I always do. I just want him to always be by my side. I will love hard when there is love to be had. I can't change him to be the guy that I have always wanted. There are no perfect guy in this world. Perfection doesn't even exist but there will always be one perfect guy for you and I found mine. It's him. It's him all along. You don't always get the kind of guy you wished for. You will get the kind of guy you need and not the kind of guy you want. There is a difference. Learn from each other, build and grow together. Don't ever give up on each other and always have each other's back. That is the kind of relationship I want and I've got it. I won't let him slip away again like before. I've lost him once and I don't want to lose him anymore. 

 

Even when things won't work well between us in the future, I will never forget the way he make me feel, his smile, his laugh, his voice and his mesmerizing stare. I will cherish every moment we spent together and he will always be the one I learnt a lot from. I love him so much. I love him more than he loves me that's for sure. He is the best by far.