Anyone Seriously Want To Tell About Trauma But Can't Until Asked

I have read so many posts concerning the horrible thoughts about having to reveal stress facts for your t, although I am hoping this isn't completely ridiculous. I am coping with the alternative.

I've several 'concerns' that I'm aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step father to an adult that I trusted like a maternal figure that showed she'd other tips for that connection in high-school... Then what is daily becoming more of the conviction that I have repressed very early punishment (I've always had terrors but am not hearing his and my voice in my own mind and it isnot nice change of words)... I've NEVER told information on any one of this stuff. I've described to two people that "something" happened with this particular person I trusted which was the level. I'm plagued short video in my mind of the ones I remember by pictures and today these voices of what I think.

Does this make sense to ANYBODY? I know I'd be HIGHLY embaressed to convey the items I'd have to and that I wish it'snot something ill building me wish to... But I'm so Tell About Stress worried we'll spend years since he thinks I am scared tiptoeing around the details and I am seriously wanting to spill the beans. I hope I can tell him this, but it is not allowed.

I am working together with a t and have discovered that I can not tell him SOMETHING if he does not ask. I've told him this and he is good at looking to ask me questions. The thing is, I also can not tell him what to ask. I understand it might sound totally mad, however it is similar to I am prohibited to just freely tell things-but I'm allowed to answer. He has gone forth and back about 'control' stress and I think I am so quiet about things happening he doesn't believe they're and starts to think we have to get another direction. I get upset once I hear him want to give up hope about actually getting relief and acquire extremely frustrated and speak about not addressing the stress exclusively. I cannot tell him that although it's like I AM AWARE I've to acquire these facts out. I think he's also concerned I cannot manage coping with the injury right as a result of my panic disorder, but I donot learn how to modify any of this. He talks about wanting to take action with as small detail and stress that you can and that I have learn about every one of these new solutions to take care of PTSD without detailed handling, but I would like it bad.