Anyone Seriously Wish To Tell About Trauma But Can Not Unless Asked

I am hoping this is simply not absolutely crazy, but I've read so many posts about the terrible thoughts about needing to disclose stress facts for your t. I'm working with the contrary.

I've several 'issues' that I'm aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to an adult that I trusted in HighSchool as being a maternal figure that later showed she'd other suggestions for that relationship... And what's daily becoming more of the guarantee that I have repressed very early neglect (I've always had dangers but am not hearing his and my style within my mind and it isnot nice exchange of words)... I have NEVER told information on any one of this stuff. I've stated to two people that "something" occurred with this person I respected and that was the level. I am suffering from photos, small movie in my mind of the people I remember now these voices of what I believe.

Does this seem sensible to EVERYONE? I understand I'd be VERY embaressed to express the things I'd have to and that I wish it'snot anything ill making me need to... But I am so worried we are going to spend years since he thinks I'm afraid tiptoeing across the specifics and that I am desperately wanting to pour the beans. I wish I can tell him this, however it is not allowed.

I have found that I am unable to tell him ANYTHING if he doesn't ask directly and am working with at. I have told him this and he's proficient at looking to ask me questions. The issue is, I also can not tell him what to ask. I know it could seem completely insane, but it is similar to I am prohibited to just freely tell things-but I am permitted to answer. He has gone forth and back about 'handling' injury and then I think I am so quiet about things going on that he doesn't think they are and starts to think we need to go another direction. I get disappointed when I hear him wish to quit hope about actually getting relief and obtain extremely depressed and speak about not addressing I want to talk, but cannot the stress exclusively. It's like I AM AWARE I have to obtain these details out but I cannot tell him that. I believe he is also concerned I cannot manage dealing with the trauma immediately due to my panic attacks, but I don't learn how to adjust any one of this. He covers injury that you can and attempting to take action with as little depth and that I have learn about all these new solutions to take care of PTSD without detailed control, but I need it bad.