Anybody Desperately Want To Tell About Stress But Can't Unless Asked

I've read so many articles regarding the terrible thoughts about being forced to reveal trauma facts to your t, although I hope this is simply not totally crazy. I'm coping with the other.

I have many 'concerns' that I'm aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive stepfather to an adult that I trusted in HighSchool as being a maternal figure that confirmed she'd other ideas for the connection... And what is daily becoming more of the conviction that I have repressed very early punishment (I've always had risks but am not experiencing his and my style in my own brain and it isn't nice change of words)... I have NEVER told information on any one of this stuff. I have mentioned to two people who "something" happened with this person that was the extent and I trusted. I am plagued short movie within my mind desperate to talk trauma of the ones I recall by pictures now these voices of what I suppose.

I am dealing with at and have discovered that I can not tell him SOMETHING if he doesn't ask. I've told him this and he is proficient at trying to ask me questions. The issue is, I also can not tell him what to ask. it is similar to I am banned to just easily tell things-but I'm allowed to answer honestly, although I understand it may seem absolutely crazy. He has gone forward and backward about 'running' trauma then I believe I am so silent about things happening he doesn't believe they are and begins to believe we have to get another direction. I get disappointed when I hear him want to stop trust about ever getting relief and acquire quite depressed and speak about not addressing the stress specifically. I can't tell him that although it's like I AM AWARE I've to obtain these details out. I believe he is also worried I can't manage coping with the stress immediately as a result of my panic disorder, but I donot understand how to adjust any one of this. He discusses trauma that you can and trying to do it with as small detail and that I have learn about all these new techniques to deal with PTSD without detailed processing, but I want it bad.

Does this seem sensible to EVERYONE? I know I would be REMARKABLY embaressed to convey what exactly I'd need to and I expect it'snot something ill making me wish to... But I'm so worried we'll spend years because he thinks I'm scared, tiptoeing around the specifics and that I am desperately wanting to spill the beans. I hope I can tell him this, however it isn't allowed.